A little more relaxed day! YEA! I have a docent meeting to go to today.
As I was making breakfast, I was going through a spiral notebook that had been sitting on our breakfast bar forever. I threw away some of the pages, but when I got to one page, I could not throw it away as it really says who I am. My dream is to be a travel photographer, to explore and to learn. I love history! I enjoy helping others, to live simply and to be financially responsible. I do enjoy helping others, but I have to remember not to enable them. I know when things become chaotic, it affects my eating and spending. My marriage is based on Rory's need for someone to take care of him and I fell into that role. Rory has never been financially responsible and that has always affected us and I see that looking back. I felt he was one person who accepted me for me and he did. I could be classified as a codependent and I know that. I do not want to enable people any more and I am tired of being the caregiver. I do not mind being Mari or Marissa's chauffeur, as it is helping all of us financially. If we had to buy a car for Mari, the payments for all the needs of a car would fall on us, as I do not want Mari to have a job while she is in school. I want her whole focus to be on school and she is doing that. Marissa deals with so much anxiety and I really do not know where her life is going. I want the best for both of my daughters. I need to keep this list in front of me all the time, as I feel like I am trying to constantly find things that make me happy and I really have it in front of my face.
Got my computer routine done this morning, as well as a load of laundry done. Took a nap and then did some work on the box from the storage unit and got it done. YEA! Rory is looking at getting into property auctions. We have a realtor that we trust and he sent me an email to Rory regarding a conversation that Rory had with him. I know that this could be a business for us, but not something I really want to do, but we need some income or eventually the inheritance money is going to run out. I do know the real estate industry better than Rory. I told him he needs to learn how to use the computer, which he does not want to do and we need to go to a class on property auctions, but he does not want them to be at night. He keeps putting up walls and I am not going to do all of this, as it is not really my thing and I told him that. I left about noon to go to my docent meeting. Interesting meeting and I really enjoyed it. I am going to join a couple more groups. One is a historical society and the other is CMSA, which has to do with the missions. We had a speaker who is a Native American from the tribe surrounding Mission San Juan Capistrano. On the way home, I went to Trader Joe's. Will need to make dinner in a few.
Good Night! Trudi
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