Thursday, November 29, 2012
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Good Morning! Actually got a good night's sleep. The Claritin worked for Rory and I got some sleep. YEA! Feeling sort of weak this morning, so I will continue to take care of me. I am officially down 20 pounds. Mari has to be at school at 1, but more than likely I will take a nap before that. Rory may work tonight at the docks. Doing my computer routine and then I need to get breakfast.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Good Morning from a gray Southern California! Did not have the best night last night, but moving on. If I need to rest today, I am going to take it. Mari and I have to go to The Apple Store this morning and get some replacement feet for her Mac. I think we will also get calendars. Mari has school today from 2-10 and there is only 3 weeks left of fall semester. YEA! Then I will have my daughter back for about a month. Rory has a doctor's appointment today.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Good Morning! It is a beautiful sunny morning in Southern California. I am tired of being tired, being angry, not being respected by my husband, being my husband's servant, being fearful, always being the fix it person. I am tired of the commercialization of Christmas. I want to feel joy. Pray that I will have energy, will be happy, will be loved and respected by my husband, that Rory and I could go through life as friends and partners and have similar values and that I can have confidence and be able to step forward in whatever God has for me. I want life to be relatively simple and that the world would not always want all these things. Let me and everyone find contentment in what we have. My goal for today is for the girls and I to get our hair cut and to take down the decorations for fall. As of this morning, I am down 19 pounds. I would like to be down 20 pounds going into the new year. I want to be good to myself and find joy within me.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Good Morning world! It is a beautiful cool sunny morning in Southern California. Last night I watched a program called "Living Abroad". I really enjoyed it. My dream for as long as I can remember has been to travel and mainly see all of the small and big towns of the United States. I was really enjoying the program and then Rory came down and wanted to talk about the rest of his day yesterday. I let him talk for awhile and then I told him I was tired and went upstairs. I have to learn to cut him off; which I feel is very disrespectful, but it is the only way to deal with him or he will talk on and on. My prayer last night was to show me how I can travel and where the Lord would like me to travel. I woke up from a dream where I was traveling and taking pictures. I was carrying all of these bags and the place was a very beautiful place, but there were people not wanting me to take pictures. Interesting dream. Right now my priority is to help Mari get through school. I am currently Rory's caretaker. I want to help Marissa as much as I can. Once Mari gets through school, I want to be close to her and probably not with Rory. When I travel I like sharing my travels with someone. This is the reason for the title of my blog-Is there ever a right time? Once Mari gets through school, then she will be working and not be able to travel all the time with me. How can I do my dream and be realistic? This schedule may change, as Mari is not up as yet. My plan for the day is to do my morning computer and house routine, make breakfast, probably take a nap, have lunch, run errands and then write my other blog, edit pictures, read and do some miscellaneous things, such as laundry, organize the refrigerator, work on putting some pictures in an album and cleaning up the floor of my office. I have decided that after I finish writing my history blog, I will go back and take pictures. I am currently writing about San Diego County and really enjoying learning more about San Diego County.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Good Morning! Up and doing my morning routine! Thankful for the quietness of the morning. Today, I am taking my car in for an oil change. Yesterday, when Mari and I were taking our walk around the lake, we were talking about confidence and I realized that I let my confidence get in the way of many things. In some ways I like to cook, but I let Rory get in the way of my enjoyment. I like to take pictures, but more to share than to really move forward. I am not comfortable or happy in my little box, but in many ways I am. A couple of weeks ago, I made some macaroni and cheese and I was not thrilled with it, but the girls loved it and want me to make more. I need to remember I am good enough. What is important? I would love to be a tour guide and share my knowledge with others. I do like food, but do I want to cook, or let someone else deal with the put downs. Trying to get Thanksgiving dinner together was hard, as my ADHD kicked in and I was trying to do too many things at once. I want to make a list today(one day at a time) of things I want to accomplish and projects I can do. I need to make a menu and stick to it. I really do want to lose weight, but I don't have to be perfect. I have to remember that I don't have to be perfect. I just need to be me!
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Good Morning! It is a beautiful sunny day here in Southern California. I got up about 6:30 and did my usual routine. I am thankful today for my health and our home and my family and the meal that I do not have to cook tonight. Mari and I are going walking at the lake sometime today. I am making eggs and pancakes for breakfast this morning. Rory will make his Eggs Benedict.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Good Morning! When I first got up it was sunny and now the fog has come in! I wish I had family to go see, but I don't, so I am just going to enjoy the day. When my parents were alive, I loved going to their house for holiday dinners, but fortunately we did not live that far away. We will have Thanksgiving dinner at home and fortunately I do not have to cook, just heat up what Claim Jumper is making. I will make pancakes in the morning. Today, Marissa has a doctor's appointment and then we are going to Mission Viejo mall, so Mari can take care of some things at The Apple Store and I can return some things to the Sleep Number store. Mari and I are going walking this afternoon.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Good Morning! Much better night-YEA! Last night, when I went to pick up Mari, I asked her friend or foe? She said friend and I knew that. Yesterday, when Marissa and I went to Smart and Final, she was having a problem with all the people and she was getting up tight and angry. As we are going into the holidays, I feel like I can't take her with me anywhere. Last night, when Rory finally got home, he told me that when I told him the kids were off this week, that that depressed him. Now, I am beginning to wonder if we should be going out for Thanksgiving dinner, as the restaurant will be noisy and there will be a lot of people and it is always stressful going out with Rory. Rory does not see why I have a problem with his gambling and why I have a problem with his $250.00 going into our joint account from when he is working. He hates working. He wants his "fun" money, but doesn't really want to work for it. All of the money that he makes from his dock job, his gambling, his social security goes into his account. To me, any money he makes should be going into our joint account in order to pay for house stuff. He doesn't see it that way. Frustration! I really have a control issue. There is a group I belong to that is talking about doing bus trips. I would really prefer to take my own car, as for one thing, I can stop when I want and I don't have to put up with a whole bunch of people and being on a schedule. I really try to be nice to most people, but I like things my own way. I have to put up with a very selfish person at home. Last night, I made a meal with stew beef that was marinated in a pesto sauce, rice, broccoli, mushrooms and onion and Rory complained because it had broccoli in it. I get to the point, I really don't like cooking, because all I hear is complaining. The girls and I like it. I can see where this day is going and I don't like it, so I am going to try and change the outcome, but I need to get out of the house to do that. I am tired of the retailers taking over Thanksgiving. Let's be thankful for all we have, whether it be minimal or large. I am tired of politics and talking about money. Rory asked if there was something enjoyable out there! Oh my gosh, is there ever!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Good Morning or maybe I should say Does Thanksgiving still exist or did it get lost in the Christmas madness? I was up around 6, but didn't sleep the best in the world, as I felt like I was constantly getting up and going to the bathroom. Oh well, I am happy, as I am down another pound, but that pound has been taken away before. I really need to stay focused. Mari and I are walking this morning, as she has school from 2-10. The other reasons, I did not sleep very well is my knee constantly hurts and after a while, I can't get comfortable and I never know if Rory is going to get up and turn on the a/c, as he can't breath. When he turns on the a/c, he closes the windows and bumps into my side of the bed. I will definitely do some naps today. I want to bring back Thanksgiving and being thankful. I feel like we go from Halloween to Christmas. The stores are opening earlier and earlier and I know one person has a petition for Target to not open at 9 p.m., which I think is awesome. Thanksgiving is on November 22 and Christmas is on December 22. We have a whole month to shop. Retailers can't wait until Friday at a reasonable time to open. I know I won't be going anywhere near these stores on Friday and I definitely would not be going shopping at 3 a.m.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Good Morning! We finally got the rain during the night! I love the rain, as my plants get watered and the hills around us start getting some green on them, instead of the brown. The air feels so fresh and clean after a rain. Today is another home day. Mari and I are going walking somewhere today and I have some errands to do, but so what else is new. It is draining to always be the one to fix things, but I am leaning on the Lord to give me the strength. One of the channels on Rory's TV was not working, so he wanted me to call the station or Cox so they could fix it. I knew what to do and now it works. Made breakfast for Rory and then made sausage for the girls and I and then got cereal for me. Mari is now up. Did Sweet Pea's insulin shot. Doing morning computer stuff. Got laundry and trash done and some vacuuming done. Mari and I are going walking this afternoon. I need to get back to being good with my exercise and food. My weight has been relatively the same for too long. I just have to remember I am still down. I was getting frustrated with Mari, as she was watching TV for too long and still had school work to do and she wanted to go on one of our stairs walk. Rory had to turn on the a/c and it was really cool enough without it.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Good Morning! It has been a busy and emotional couple of days and I really need to take a day and rest and go nowhere, except maybe local. I was supposed to have my first meet up for "Secret Stairs for Photographers", but the weather channel is predicting rain this afternoon and I really don't want to do this in the rain, so I am going to cancel the meet up. Rory is working today, so it would be a really good day just to stay home and do things around the house.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Good Morning! We have clouds, but we also have sun. Yesterday, was a long and emotional day! Instead of going walking at Dana Point, I decided to go out to Woodland Hills and say good by to a friend who is dying of cancer. For me to drive to Woodland Hills, takes 90 minutes approximately. Luckily, there was not much traffic. Kaiser Medical Center in Woodland Hills is a huge place, so trying to find the hospital part was difficult. I did find where she was. I did not recognize her. I have not seen Valerie in about six months. I learned I am a "do" person and I am not good with emotions. She was asleep, so the nurses recommended I write her a note, which I did. Her sister-in-law came in and I talked to her for a little bit. When I first went in Valerie's room, I said "hi Val, it's Trudi" and she twitched. I really did not know how to handle this. I am glad I went to see her. I got some lunch for me and some dinner for Mari on the way home and drove back. Stopped at Target and the farmer's market and then took Mari her dinner. Came home and took a short nap, which helped tremendously. Picked up a friend and we went out for dinner and then to a champagne tasting class. I am not a real big fan of champagne, but there was one I liked. Came home and went to bed and had the best night sleep, I have had in a long time. This morning, I am doing my morning routine, but Mari and I are not walking. We may be seeing some friends in Oceanside this afternoon. Rory will be out most of the day.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Good Morning! Last night, after I had said good night, my friend's sister called me to tell me that my friend, Valerie, was not going to be with us much longer. I had know this for a while. To me, Valerie's and my friendship had ended about a couple of years ago, but when she was diagnosed with breast cancer, I continued to keep in touch with her and we saw each other from time to time. As far as going out to say good by, I did that a couple of years ago. Can people accept that we all have differing ways of saying good by or ending a relationship. I feel that way with my husband. I live with him yes, but I question whether I was really ever in love with him. I would really like to walk away from this relationship, but for the moment I can't. I feel like I put on a face and be the person the other person wants me to be. Who am I? Can I really have a relationship with someone? I miss my dad tremendously, but I have dealt with the fact that he is gone. Today, I feel somewhat down, like ok, it is just another day. I guess there are routine days and there are days I can get excited about. Today, Mari has class from 10-10. I am going to Dana Point Harbor and walk. Farmer's Market is today and tonight I am going to a champagne tasting with a friend. I like to go to Dana Point and walk. Am I really looking forward to champagne tasting or am I doing this because someone else wants to? Better go get breakfast together.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Good Morning! In the past, I have struggled with the holidays, because my dad is not with us any longer, but as the years went on, I got better about. This year I am struggling with the holidays because of what Christmas has become. Right after Halloween, I started seeing Christmas decorations. Can we wait until after Thanksgiving or have we forgotten Thanksgiving? Everything, nowadays has to be big, why can't things be simple. I live with this in my own house as well. Target is opening at 9 p.m. on Thanksgiving, so people can shop and their employees don't get to spend the whole day of Thanksgiving with their family. This is ridiculous. More is not better! Up around 6 and doing my morning routine. The girls of us are home today and Rory has to work from 3 p.m. to 11 p.m. Mari and I are going for a walk this morning.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
Good Morning! To answer the question of what is important is myself and my health, my daughters, my photography, my writing, my learning and exploring and being responsible with money. I have to look at things in regard to these items. Got up a little after 6 and did my morning get ready routine. Came downstairs and did my quiet time routine. Mari and I are going to take a walk this morning and I am totally enjoying the cool mornings. Mari has school today from 2-10, plus we have to go get printed a book that she is doing for a class. I have errands to do today and do some things that did not get done yesterday. I need to get Rory's breakfast before we go walking. Enjoy the day and be thankful for what you have!
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Good Morning! Woke up a little before 6. All of a sudden I remembered that I had not totally closed the back door of the car. I went downstairs to the garage and luckily, the door was closed. I was afraid that the battery would be dead and have to deal with getting a new battery. Thankfully, I do not have to deal with that. Mari and I are headed for Los Angeles County Museum of Art for her art class this morning. Then we are going to go to some cemeteries and take some pictures for Veteran's Day. Yesterday I was looking for some travelogues to read and I came to realize that there are very few on the United States. One of my dreams is to travel this country and see all of the small and big countries. I may change my other blog to Gypsy Mom-This is our country. I realize I do many things for many people and yesterday I, overall took care of me and I am feeling much better this morning. I am Rory's caretaker,as he does not really want to do anything for himself; I am Mari and Marissa's mom and driver, I am a cook and housekeeper and I take care of Sweet Pea, our cat.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Good Morning! It is actually beginning to feel like fall. It is cool out this morning and a beautiful sunny morning. As I said yesterday, I need to make things simple, but I have a tendency to make things difficult. I am really tired of being tired. I want some energy. I have been really trying to make things simple over the holidays. I have come to realize how much my dad did for me. He knew what to get me for Christmas and he made awesome holiday food. He was always a good cook. I miss him very much. My husband just wants everything done for him. I feel like I do so much for everybody else, that it feels like I am totally drained. I am really trying not to be selfish, but it would be nice if I could have someone do something for me. Today Mari and I are going for a walk and then she is going to focus on school and I am going to get some things done that have not been done over the last couple of days. I was going to go to San Diego, but I am going to put that off.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Good Morning! Every time Rory works the docks it really affects my sleep. He worked until 3 a.m. this morning and I guess got home about 4. I do get concerned that he is going to fall asleep at the wheel and have an accident. I got up about 4 to see if he was home and I could hear the TV going downstairs and him snoring. I went back to sleep and slept until 5:30, when he came to bed and then we both went back to sleep and I slept until 7. I am getting a late start, but Mari and I are not going walking, as the weather last night was a little iffy. The girls, a friend of mine and I are possibly going wine tasting and then out to dinner. We could have some showers again this evening, so we will see what we do. Mari has to go to a writing lab at school from 1-2 p.m. We will see how the rest of the day goes.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Good Morning! We are actually getting rain this morning and it is so nice to sit here and do my post and listen to the rain drops. I was up at 6 and did my morning routine. I was trying to share something with Rory and he cut me off, so he could watch his TV program. Originally, I was going to title this post-Sharing. We got to talking about Christmas gifts and he is going to give the girls gift cards and I told him that the $100 was the gift everyone was getting. I am going to have fun with the $100 and how they get it. Yes, in the past, I have said I don't want anything, but, mainly because Rory doesn't really know how or what to get for anyone. I asked him if he was going to get me a gift card. It is all about the girls and I thought I was his wife. I don't like getting things for him, because I am always concerned that I am going to get the wrong thing, so it is just easier to give him cash and that way he can get what he wants. This is why I miss my dad so much, as I could share with him and he knew what I liked. Mari is like that and I am so thankful for our relationship. My greatest gift would be to have a husband, who enjoyed actual communication and who knew how to buy presents and what I really liked and who I could really share things. I am thankful for Mari and for the friends I have on FB and other social media, who I can do life with. I love Marissa as well, but there is a difference between Mari and Marissa. Moving on, Mari has school from 10-10. If, I can, I am going to Dana Point and walk, then to Trader Joe's and then home. I will take Mari her snack this afternoon and then go to Farmer's Market and then to Target. I will work some more on gypsymomvirtualconcierge.blogspot.com today.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Good Morning! Up at 6. Thankful to be able to get up and enjoy the day and to have my health, my friends and my family. Some things I have to remember today, as I may not be thrilled with much of the results of the election, but it is not all about me, all I have is today, so we will see where we go from here and The Serenity Prayer, which states "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference, living one day at a time, enjoying one minute at a time... Mari and I are going walking this morning and hopefully today will be better than yesterday. Rory has some financial things to take care of this morning. The cleaners are coming today and Mari has to go down to school to a writing lab.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Good Morning! It is a beautiful sunny day in Southern California and it is election day! This will be an interesting day and yes, I do plan to vote. I will, also, be glad to see the end of the election ads on TV and the end of all of the negativity and all of the campaigning.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Good Morning! Up at 6 this morning! I love it when it is light out when I get up. Mari has school today and Marissa has decided to volunteer at the Pacific Marine Mammal Center, so we are taking her application to them today. Rory has a dental appointment this morning. Every time we go to Los Angeles, it is an adventure. The train issue was interesting. Seeing the homeless people is sad and along Hollywood Blvd., there are many. Seeing the wall art; which we used to know as graffiti, was interesting. There are some good artists out there, if they are just given some free canvases. I don't want to live in Los Angeles, but I find it interesting to visit. The history, the architecture, the culture. I have a Franklin Covey and the quote today was from Eleanor Roosevelt: "Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give." I have had my little camera for a year now! This is one of the first pictures I took with it. This is near where one of Mari's classes is.