Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Control and frustration
Good Morning! Much better night-YEA! Last night, when I went to pick up Mari, I asked her friend or foe? She said friend and I knew that. Yesterday, when Marissa and I went to Smart and Final, she was having a problem with all the people and she was getting up tight and angry. As we are going into the holidays, I feel like I can't take her with me anywhere. Last night, when Rory finally got home, he told me that when I told him the kids were off this week, that that depressed him. Now, I am beginning to wonder if we should be going out for Thanksgiving dinner, as the restaurant will be noisy and there will be a lot of people and it is always stressful going out with Rory. Rory does not see why I have a problem with his gambling and why I have a problem with his $250.00 going into our joint account from when he is working. He hates working. He wants his "fun" money, but doesn't really want to work for it. All of the money that he makes from his dock job, his gambling, his social security goes into his account. To me, any money he makes should be going into our joint account in order to pay for house stuff. He doesn't see it that way. Frustration! I really have a control issue. There is a group I belong to that is talking about doing bus trips. I would really prefer to take my own car, as for one thing, I can stop when I want and I don't have to put up with a whole bunch of people and being on a schedule. I really try to be nice to most people, but I like things my own way. I have to put up with a very selfish person at home. Last night, I made a meal with stew beef that was marinated in a pesto sauce, rice, broccoli, mushrooms and onion and Rory complained because it had broccoli in it. I get to the point, I really don't like cooking, because all I hear is complaining. The girls and I like it. I can see where this day is going and I don't like it, so I am going to try and change the outcome, but I need to get out of the house to do that. I am tired of the retailers taking over Thanksgiving. Let's be thankful for all we have, whether it be minimal or large. I am tired of politics and talking about money. Rory asked if there was something enjoyable out there! Oh my gosh, is there ever!