Last night, I caught up on reading blogs. Something I read really hit me-"Real love is based on respect, compromise, care and trust. I really don't have any of that in my marriage. Some of what I don't have is because of both of our histories. What Rory was raised with and what I was raised with. Respect, Rory really doesn't respect anybody and compromise, it has to always be Rory's way. Care-Rory tries to be caring, but he really doesn't know how. Trust, in some ways, I can trust Rory and in some ways I can't. We are on totally two different planets when it comes to finances. I have stayed put because of the girls and now, because of money. I don't know if I really knew what relationships were, when I met Rory. I still am concerned about relationships. I seem to keep relationships at arms length.
Today, we have nothing planned, but I thought we might start going through the history books I got for my birthday and seeing if we can find some of the places in the books. Doing computer stuff. It's raining off and on.
At 9 going to read, if I can stay awake and at 10 go to bed.
Good Night! Trudi