Saturday, December 15, 2012
Good Morning! After the shooting yesterday in Connecticut, many things have come to my mind. I am so thankful for my daughters and that they are still alive. I cannot imagine what the parents who lost their little ones are going through today. Some of the news reports have said that the young man who did the shooting dealt with Asperger Syndrome, which is something I am very familiar with, as Marissa and Rory both deal with it. Last night, Mari found out that she has two A's and both Mari and I were really excited. Marissa felt very left out. She has problems with school, as she has a learning disability. Rory does not want to see the emotion of people on TV. Marissa has a hard time seeing anyone be emotional. I have a hard time being emotional, as I have a hard time being accepted. I know it is ok to show emotion. I love Christmas with the lights and the decorations. Christmas is hard around this house for me, as I miss my dad very much, as he really made Christmas for me. Rory deals with real life on TV. I know I cannot separate what I had with my dad from what I have now. I need to make Christmas enjoyable for all of us. Rory really does not understand love or how to show love or emotion. I really do feel like his caregiver or servant, but I don't feel loved. My question is why did this man have to kill all these innocent people. My emotions have been on my sleeve all day today. Today we are going to put up our Christmas tree. I am doing my morning computer routine.